Unless you are referring to the kind of change that you will receive if you use, say, a one hundred dollar bill to buy a pack of gum, then the prospect of change can be an unpleasant experience.
I don't know much, but one thing I do know, is that over the years I haven't always done the best job with being able to immediately handle the changes that have come barging rather rudely into my life. I usually land somewhere in the middle of a sliding scale comprised of kicking-and screaming on one end, and a epic temper tantrum on the other.
But whether I like it or not, change is a constant, always weaving it's way through my life. This is especially true with the presence of a degenerative neurological disease. However, given enough time, I will usually become reconciled with the forward-moving changes, and arrive at a place of acceptance, peace, and adaption to the newness that the these will bring to my life.
Over the past two years that I have written this blog, I have done so with a light heart. I have exposed, and shared with all of you, the areas in my life that I have struggled with, been frustrated over, and found strength in and through, while at the same time, trying to show the humor that I see in it all. Not one word that I wrote in any of the past blogs was untrue, and yet.....it doesn't mean that there are not moments that arise in my life that I don't struggle with.
My writing has been born out of a desire to be an encouragement to others, to lead by example, and to give support to everyone who lives every second, of every moment, of every day with a form of this neurological disease, which causes the condition known as Ataxia. To this end, I share the following:
My life has been on a amplified course of change ever since the diagnosis of Spinocerebellar Ataxia in 2003, and I am again facing another change in my life. But, even though it is very frustrating, I have already determined that it will not get the best of me. I have arrived at the place where time, and my body have come together. My body, as I see it, is committing an act of treason, but again, I have become reconciled to the next stage of change, and this has led me to the inevitable conclusion that I need to give up my driving.
Not just my driving but I also need to turn in my license. I will be honest, that as I write this, I just can't think of any jokes. I am doing better with this than just a few days ago, when I arrived at this decision, but it is still new enough that I am not seeing any humor in it. Well...accept for the fact that everyone else on the road can now give a collective sigh of relief. I mean, for crying out loud, I taught all my kids to drive, and that was...what, just last week! Okay, okay...the first one was eight years ago, and the last one was almost four years ago...but dang it, it feels like last it was just week!
Anyway, I just wanted to be honest, to let you see the changes in my life, and to assure you all that these things may temporarily knock me down, but that I will yet rise again and continue to fight. That no matter what changes come into my life, that I will continue to rearrange and adjust. I also would like to encourage you, friends, that on this life journey we would face the changes together, and that you would continue to laugh, love, and struggle well, right along with me.
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| Change can be stunningly beautiful! |
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| Something may come along that will try to block my path.....but I will just smile, peek around it, and move on. |
